2009 Bastille Days w/niece

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Ran further than I have ever run before

So today to commemorate my 2 year weight loss anniversary I thought I would run further than I have ever run before. After all that is how I lost the weight - by continually trying to outdo myself and do just a little bit better each day.

Now was this such a good idea??? I am not so sure. My last 13 miler was a month ago. The last 3 weeks my long runs were 11 miles, 6 miles, and 7 miles so it has been a few weeks since I did any real distance. My half marathon training program had me at 9 miles today so what is another 5 more - no big deal. Well towards the end my legs were getting sore and felt like they could go no further and I really started to wonder if this was a good idea but I was determined to finish it and finish it I did. My time was pretty slow average 11:07 min miles and that is really slow for me especially since it was on an indoor track so no hills or wind or anything like that. I really wanted to run outside today but things were not working out for me. I had meetings all morning long and then had to drive Mike back and forth to work in the afternoon. I was hoping to run while Mike was at work but by the time I got everything ready to run I knew I would not have enough time to do 14 miles so I put it off until the evening. Since I don't run outside at night and the gym closes at 7 on Sat I opted to run at the Pettit. I have not ran there since the half marathon a month ago. I must admit I like it there. A cool 50 degrees plus I get to watch the ice skaters and a little hockey - although it is pretty hard to watch the hockey.

I knew running 14 miles doing laps would be hard. The last time I had a crowd of people cheering me on plus other runners and that really helps me get through it. Today I just had my music so I thought I needed something else to help me get through the miles. I decided I would dedicate each mile to DM friends - but how to pick which 14. Coincidentally 14 people posted comments on my transformation pictures this week so I used those 14 people and dedicated the miles in the order that those people commented. So here is a breakdown of the miles.

Mile 1 - Runfasterdaddy - thought about you and the stroller and that cute picture your daughter drew.
Mile 2 - Gavin T - Thought was wow Australia that would be a great place to run a marathon.
Mile 3 - Randy M - Felt bad about the foot and thought this mile is run since you cannot right now. Also spent some time praying for our pastor and our church as well as all my DM friends (actually did this on and off throughout the whole run.)
Mile 4 - Colin H - Was thinking wow you put in amazing miles. I don't know how you run almost every day. Also started thinking about those nasty painful green inserts and hope things go better for your knee.
Mile 5 - Jeremy F - You had said in your comment on my transformation pictures congrats on your half and I thought how appropriate since I am running the same track as my half. I started remembering how nice it was to run the half and pictured the people cheering and watching the speed skaters.
Mile 6 - Brendan M - You said in the comment on my pictures that you think of me often and I am an inspiration. Tried figuring out what that means but thanks. Then I was thinking about your run and wet socks and was really glad that I was running indoors in a perfect 50 degrees. You have had some terrible weather to run in. I am such a wimp when it comes to that but I really did not care today. Much better than ice or puddles.
Mile 7 - Jason B - Thought about your saying live life don't endure it. Then I was thinking I did not get a chance to see how the coastal challenge went for you. I hope it went well and was glad you got the last good run in to get your mind back into it.
Mile 8 - Meg H - I was thinking you did 9 miles today and that was my scheduled run. I was thinking maybe I should stop at 9 but I was still feeling great so nope I wanted to finish the 14.
Mile 9 - Kristina T - You said I had lots of will and strength and I was thinking I sure do. That will power has gotten me through a lot.
Mile 10 - Samantha - I was thinking about the kickboxing and how much I like doing that. Even threw some small air punches while running. Must have looked pretty funny. Thought about kicking the bag when I got home.
Mile 11 - For my H. - This is where my legs started to hurt and I was thinking how appropriate. My legs would start to feel a little sore on the mile dedicated to the new runner. I was thinking about how your shoe shopping was going and hoping that you would take it slow and easy and enjoy it.
Mile 12 - Anne - Was thinking about your transformation also and how much work you put in. My legs started feeling better for a while. And I was starting to think I only have two more miles to go.
Mile 13 - Brandon W. - I really wanted to quit on this mile. Leg pain came back but I thought of all people I cannot quit on Brandon. I started thinking about the hard runs you have done and decided to just keep putting one foot in front of the other but this was turning out to be the longest mile ever. Sure enough when I was finished I went back through my lap timers and I had missed hitting the button on a lap so it really was the longest mile ever. (This track has 3.6 laps to a mile.)
Mile 14 - Sally S. At this point I just wanted to be done and figured it was my last mile so I could endure it. My pace slowed dramatically and I thought of getting passed by a guy in a chicken costume - that would be funny to see. And I was just counting those last agonizing laps - hoping I would finish before the Pettit closed.

Oh yeah the song that has gotten me through so many runs came on toward the end of Mile 13 so I just hit repeat and played it a few times. "Its On" by Superchick. The lyrics to the end of the song are what do it for me.

"And though you want to quit
Don't think you can get through it
You've come to far to walk away
It's not gonna be today

And no matter how you feel
It's that you do that matters
This is your moment to be strong
Today's your day
It's On..."

I just love that. It totally helps me get through when I want to quit.

Total actually ran 14.3 miles in 2 hours and 39 min.

So since this strategy worked well I am thinking I will do the same for actually running my marathon in October. I have a long time to decide who to dedicate miles to but I know who will get the last 1.2 miles and get me across the finish line. That would be my brother Michael (or Monkey as we call him). In Dec 08 one week before Christmas he was diagnosed with Acute Leukemia. He had to spend one month in the hospital and could have very few visitors and the few that were allowed had to be completely healthy so I visited him for hours almost every day. It was so hard to see. I think what was the worst for him - well besides the treatments - was that he could not see his daughter. (She is the one I am holding in the picture at the top of my blog page). It has been a rough year but the leukemia did go into remission. He still needs to take the cancer pills but currently cannot do that since his body function counts are all way too low (liver, kidneys, etc.) I love my brother dearly and we are really close. What hurts the most is that he has not accepted Christ and I cannot bear it if he would die like this. I pray for him daily and really hope he comes around. Anyways I know my last mile of the marathon will be dedicated to him so now I have to finish it. Although with as hard as 14 was today I wonder if 26.2 will be possible. But I know from experience with what I have done so far that if I take it slow and gradually increase my body will get used to it and I will be able to do it. And my training for the marathon will not technically start until May or June.

Friday, February 26, 2010

Fear of Change - Jillian Michaels

Just wanted to quote this because it is so true. Don't let fear hold you back from anything. It is so worth it to get out there and change your life.

From LOSING IT! With Jillian Michaels
Friday, February 26, 2010

Fear of Change

Fear of change can keep you in a soul-crushing job, a bad relationship, or a physically destructive lifestyle. Ask yourself: Is the devil-you-know approach really good enough for you? Is your life making you happy? If you answered no to either of those questions, WHAT do you have to lose by embracing change?

The truth is, things should be changing — your body is changing, your habits are changing, your attitude is changing. This might be the point where, because of so much change, you're starting to freak out a little bit. You might be asking yourself, What will all this change mean — to my life's direction, my relationships, my identity?

I can't stress enough how important it is to resist any pressure you may be feeling from others to stop improving your habits or to remain a certain size. And don't worry if your spouse, family members, or friends aren't on board with your plans. You can't control them. They'll change if and when they want to change. Take care of yourself first.

Maybe you're afraid you won't know how to love yourself if you're not a certain size. Many people are buried in their weight, not knowing who they would be without it. This is especially a risk if you've never identified yourself as "skinny." Don't be afraid of what you'll be like when you're thinner. Feel the fear and do it anyway! And don't sabotage your efforts because you don't deem yourself worthy — you are SO deserving of achieving your weight-loss goal! Let's dig deep, get our hands dirty, and do this. What is there to be afraid of when you're healthy — besides living the life you're supposed to lead? When you're overweight and uncomfortable, there is so much less you can do, and you always live with the threat of having a stroke, developing type 2 diabetes, or getting cancer. Obviously, a lot more risks are involved if you give up and stay stuck instead of making changes.

The only thing that's holding you back from achieving your dreams is YOU. Believe in yourself, and stop letting your excuses keep you from living. Screw surviving — it's time to thrive!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

1st treadmill run - recovery run & bike

Did not look at what I was supposed to do today. I knew it would probably be a recovery run since I was supposed to do 6 miles with surges yesterday. I was actually planning on attending a class at the gym but due to the snow that hit this afternoon I missed the class. So I split up running and riding the bike. I started out with a 10 min random ride on the bike then ran a slow mile then 15 min on bike and finished off on the treadmill. I have never run on the treadmill before and have only used that for incline walking which I always have felt like I had to hold on so I did not think I would be able to run since I have that horrible habit of holding on. So I started out slow and it was hard not to hold on but I did it. I did most of the mile at a speed of 6 and finished the last minute at a speed of 7. Felt nice to be able to do it but so incredibly boring. Much worse than doing laps on the track.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Boot Camp & Run

My running schedule today was to run 6 miles at a nice easy pace with a 3 min surge every 15 min. I had a hard time keeping my heart rate down especially bringing it back down after the 1st 3 min surge. I walked for a little bit to bring my heart rate down but when I started running again it went back up too far so I skipped the rest of the surges. I also only had enough time to do 5 miles before boot camp so I did the last mile after boot camp. Not sure what has been going on with me lately. I know the difficulty in exercise is mostly due to poor nutrition. I seem to have lost my motivation to eat healthy lately even though I know I am suffering because of it. I have been working very long days and not having time to get everything done and I am just too tired most days to make dinner so we have been getting take out a lot these past few weeks. My body hates it and that really needs to change. Breakfast and lunch and snacks are good and healthy but dinner has been horrible. At least these long work hours will not last too much longer and my life can get back to normal. In the meantime I really need to have a dinner plan so I don't emotionally eat.

I also need to figure out how to fit in running with boot camp. I love the boot camp class and I love running and I know I should alternate the days but I have been so busy lately that I have a hard time fitting in the running on alternate days so I have to do it on the boot camp days for at least another week or two. If I run first I have a hard time doing the boot camp class. If I do boot camp first I feel dead for the run. I tried splitting up the running around the boot camp class and that seemed to work best but it was still really hard to run after the class.

All in all today was rough. I had a hard time running. I felt like I might puke up dinner during my run. Boot camp was rough but it is supposed to be. Then my legs were tired for the last mile after boot camp but at least I was feeling a little better for that run.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Winter outdoor run S Milw to St Francis and back


This is my 1st time running outside this winter. It was cold and windy today but not as bad as it has been lately. Temp 24F wind chill 9F. Today's run was pretty slow. The wind was strong at times and it felt like I was not moving at all. There were quite a few spots with patches of ice that I had to stop and walk around. All in all it was a good 11 mile run 1 hr 58 min 10:43 pace. Wore 3 layers of clothes and was still pretty cold. Also did not run with any music and just listened to the wind and the waves. Went at about 11:00 am and still only came across 16 people and 7 dogs during the whole 2 hour run. And yes I did count - must be the accountant in me :)

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Signed up for my 1st marathon

I finally did it. After asking a ton of people their opinions on what marathon I should run - small vs large (all being local since I am short on travel funds) I decided to go with large. Thank you to everyone who commented. Although there were many good reasons on both sides I feel I would get such a rush of excitement running with a ton of other runners and a huge crowd. Hopefully it will get me through to the finish. So I officially signed up today for the Chicago Marathon 10/10/10. I am so excited. The past few days and weeks I have had this huge knot in my stomach trying to decide what to do or if I should do it. While the not is still there and I feel a little like I am going to be sick and I am still terrified that I will not be able to finish, I am going to put out my best effort in training so I will finish.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Amazing runner high from a 5 mile run.

I have such a runners high today. For today's run I decided I would really focus on form. Forefoot striking pushing with the forefoot and using the hamstrings and glutes to push me forward. Keeping shoulders back and being upright and kept track of my breathing. I lost focus quite a few times but kept coming back. I also really pushed it and felt like I had an amazing workout. Talked to a few people at the gym after and they call me a marathoner. I laugh. Someday though I will be a marathoner.

5 miles - 43:52

Mile 1 8:28
Mile 2 9:14
Mile 3 8:31
Mile 4 8:54
Mile 5 8:45